It is a sobering thought when you realize that everything you have and maintain you have because of your job. Sobering, scary, and very adult.
It is one thing to realize this when gamely and happily employed. At that point, it's something to muse about and help to motivate you to do your best to maintain that job. It is quite another thing to realize this at the same time your job is suddenly hanging in the balance.
Many people avoid making adulthood career changes. It makes sense to stay: retirement plans, steady incomes, climbing that ladder, but what if that ladder is taken away while you're nearing the top?
I've been thinking about this problem a lot recently, as it came to light that my part time and full time jobs would be downsizing at the end of the year.
I want to make enough money and I want to be proud of the patch on my shoulder. I started this post when all this silliness at work was happening. For about a week I convinced myself that I would not survive the lay-offs we were going through. I have never felt so anxious in my life and that's the truth. In the end, I was not laid off and will continue to work where I work for as long as I can. Change is hard at the best of times, but change that is forced upon you is the most difficult.
That said, my ear is as close to the ground as it has ever been concerning jobs. But that's a story for another post.