Understanding

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We had guy who chose a strange way to commit suicide by cutting his ankles with razor blades. "I wanted to stand in the shower and bleed out." he said, and yet somehow, we found him fully clothed sitting in his living room. This was after bleeding all over the bathroom, seemingly walking circles in the kitchen, laying in bed (leaving a puddle of blood on the mattress) and then bleeding on the carpeted living room floor.

It was something that I'd never seen before, and I continue to marvel in my lack of understanding of suicide and depression. I can't understand how an attempt at suicide is a "call for help" and why suicidal people can't just literally call for help. How do people get to the point of "wanting to end it all." Especially people who seem to have it pretty good. Manchmedics recent post reiterates my confusion and frustration on this topic. And most importantly, why do people feel the need to take out not only themselves but their children and spouses too. This truly exceeds my ability to understand.

Not to make a bad joke, but he probably lost his security deposit on top of it all.

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Lodo Grdzak said…
If someone had cancer you'd be able to see they were sick--but with Bi-polar disorder or depression you can't see it on the surface. Especially if you never met someone before. To walk the earth stripped of your soul is considered one the greatest curses by many cultures, but that's the fate of these people with severe mental disorders--particularly bi-polar. I've seen it first-hand. Why dont they just "call for help?" 'Cause they've lost their minds!
19 April, 2008
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