He's Dead (reprise)

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"Hurry up, hurry up!" she shouted.
They're going as fast as they can
"He can't breathe, he can't breathe!" she shouted.
Get the bag, the oxygen, the monitor, the board
"He needs oxygen, he needs oxygen!" she shouted.
Crossing the threshold.
"Where is he?" they ask.  How would they know?
"In there, in there!" she shouted.
"What happened?" How would they know?
"He needs oxygen, he needs oxygen!" she shouted.
They enter the room, evaluate the situation.
"Don't stand there, don't stand there!" she shouted.
CPR started, oxygen delivered, heart monitor on.
"No breathing tube, no breathing tube!" she shouted.
"What do you mean?" they ask. How would they know?
She waved a paper in their faces.
"It says it right here, right here!" she shouted
"He doesn't want any of this." they say.  How would they know?
"He just needs oxygen, just oxygen" she shouted.
They begin to say they're sorry.
"I knew it, I knew it!" she shouted.
They felt useless.
"Is he dead, is he dead?" she shouted. 
Yes, he's dead.  As gently as they could
"Why didn't you do anything, why?" she shouted.
They didn't know what to say.
"You killed him, you killed him" she shouted.
Tears well in their eyes, dampened by anger.
"Get out, get out!" she shouted.
 They leave. As quickly as they arrived.

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